Pencil Journey
Life Beyond the Border (an artist's journey) Author: Jake Yago
Friday, September 4, 2026
The Climb That Echoed My Journey
I thought about the times I lost a job and had to start over, the quiet days when I wasn’t sure what came next, and the nights I held on to my dreams even when they felt far away. Arizona can be beautiful, but it can also test you, your patience, your confidence, your resilience.
So as I pulled myself upward, it felt symbolic. Every stretch, every push, every moment of doubt echoed the same perseverance I’ve had to rely on to survive here. And when I reached the top, it wasn’t just a view, it was a reminder that I’ve climbed harder things before, and I’m still moving forward.
This place has shaped me. It’s challenged me. And it’s taught me that even when life feels steep, I can still rise.
Where Time Folds Around a Capsule
Now here I am, decades later, face‑to‑face with a real test capsule. It’s not flying through space, but it still carries that same weight, the ambition, the courage, the curiosity that pushed people to go beyond what anyone thought was possible. For a moment, I felt like I had just stepped out of it myself, carrying those childhood memories with me.
Arizona has a way of surprising you like that. You think you’ve seen everything, then you stumble on something that reconnects you to who you were and reminds you of how far you’ve come. It’s strange how a piece of space history can make you reflect on your own journey, from a kid discovering the moon in a library to someone still chasing that sense of wonder today.
Sunday, August 30, 2026
The Taste That Followed Us
The next morning, hunger made everything real. No car, no familiar streets, no Filipino breakfast waiting. I walked half a mile just hoping to find something, and by luck discovered a Walgreens. Bread and drinks, that was survival for the day. The next few days were harder. We weren’t just homesick; we were literally starving until we figured out how to call taxis and reach a grocery store.
But even then, the taste of the food here felt foreign. We kept searching for the flavors we grew up with, the comfort of home. Slowly, we learned to adapt. We figured out how to recreate Filipino dishes using whatever ingredients we could find here. It wasn’t perfect, but it was enough to remind us of who we were.
Like this turon. I used buro bananas because they’re the closest thing to saba. It’s not exactly the same, but when the sugar caramelizes and the smell fills the kitchen, it brings me back. It’s proof of how immigrants survive: we improvise, we adapt, we recreate pieces of home until they fit into our new life. It’s a reminder that even in a foreign land, even after hunger, confusion, and culture shock, we carry our flavors with us. We carry our identity. And sometimes, all it takes is a simple turon to remind us that we didn’t lose who we were, we just learned how to bring it forward.
Saturday, August 29, 2026
The Monster Truck That Returned My Childhood
Driving through Phoenix one afternoon, I noticed a crowd gathered in a parking lot. Curiosity tugged at me, so I turned in. It was a car show, rows of polished classics glowing under the Arizona sun, but the one that stopped me was a towering monster truck, massive enough to make everything else look small.
The moment I stood in front of it, something inside me shifted. I wasn’t just looking at a truck, I was suddenly a kid again in Manila. I remembered invited by our neighbor to watch a monster truck show at Rizal Memorial Field. Those trucks flew through the air and landed like bouncing balls shaking the ground. I was amazed, wide‑eyed, and completely taken by the moment. It was one of those childhood memories that stays with you long after life has carried you somewhere else.
Standing there in Phoenix, I felt that same spark, along with the reminder of how different life was back home. In Manila, neighbors weren’t just people living next door; they were part of your story, part of your everyday life. They were the ones who brought you into moments that shaped you.
A giant truck in a parking lot became more than a spectacle. It became a bridge between two worlds, between the child I was in Manila and the man I am now in Arizona.
The Detour That Showed Me History
My flight wasn’t until the afternoon, so I had plenty of time. After enjoying my free breakfast, I decided not to waste the morning. I hopped on a city bus and headed straight to Pearl Harbor. I walked through the historical sites, I felt the weight of history settle around me, the quiet bravery, the sacrifice, the stories carried by the wind. Then I saw the WWII cannon. A group of tourists were climbing on it, laughing, posing for photos. I waited patiently, letting the moment breathe. When it was finally free, I asked a fellow traveler (me, the accidental tourist) to take my picture.
Standing there, I realized it was one of those rare moments when a bad situation turns into something unexpectedly meaningful. A missed flight became a chance to explore history, to see something I never planned for, and to remind myself that sometimes life’s detours lead to the best memories.
Manila Moments That Still Follow Me
During one of my visits to Manila, I was walking along Roxas Boulevard when I saw the statue of Dolphy. Right away, I remembered that the very first movie I ever watched as a child was one of his films at Paco Cinema with my uncle, aunties, and my sister. The theater was freezing (my first airconditioned place experience), packed with people, and as a small kid I had to squeeze into a tiny spot just to see the screen. When we stepped outside afterward, the Manila heat hit me so hard it felt like waking up from a memory.
Paco wasn’t a place we went every day, but it was a place that shaped so much of my childhood, vendors calling out, jeepneys rumbling by, tricycles weaving through crowds. It was loud, chaotic, and full of life, a complete contrast to where I live now in America, where everything feels quieter and more orderly. Yet every time I pass by Paco, my mind travels back to those childhood days. It’s where my mother bought my school shoes and uniform, where we shopped for our sari-sari store, and where my father drove his jeepney route.
Those memories remind me of who I was, where I came from, and how far life has taken me
Held by Grace on the Mountain
When I first came here thirty years ago, life was busy but still simple. I was young, hopeful, and trying to understand a world that didn’t always understand me back. As the years passed, everything became more complicated, unexpected challenges, uncertainties, moments that shook my confidence. People think that living in America means life is easy. They see comfort, convenience, opportunity. But they don’t see the nights you cry quietly because you lost your job, or the fear that hits you when your health benefits disappear and you don’t know how you’ll make it through.
I’ve faced all of that. I’ve carried all of that. And yet, seating on that mountain, I felt something stronger than fear, gratitude. Because every time I was close to sinking, God pulled me back up. Every time I thought I couldn’t handle one more setback, He showed me I wasn’t alone. He rescued me in ways I didn’t always recognize at the time, but looking back, I see His fingerprints on every moment I survived.
Up there, with the wind brushing against me and the city stretched out below, I felt emotional in a way I can’t fully explain. I saw the life I built, the battles I fought, the grace that carried me. And I realized that even through all the hardship, I’m still here. Still standing. Still growing. Still held.
Friday, August 28, 2026
Finding the Perfect Spot
Creating Home, Wherever We Stand
Now, standing on that hill with two more children beside us, under the wide Arizona sky, I’m reminded of everything we’ve built. The desert felt strange at first, quiet, dry, so different from the familiar chaos and warmth of Manila. But slowly, through challenges, small victories, and countless new beginnings, it became home.
It’s a blend of worlds, the rugged beauty of Arizona and the unshakeable closeness of a Filipino family that refused to lose itself in the process of starting over. We carried our humor, our resilience, our way of loving loudly and standing for each other. And we planted those values in new soil.
Our story isn’t just about leaving home, it’s about creating one. Together. Wherever life takes us.
Wednesday, August 26, 2026
The Colors I Miss, The Colors I Make
Living in America moves fast. So fast that you forget the small things that once made life feel full. Back home, happiness came naturally no effort, no planning, just the comfort of familiar streets, familiar faces, and the warmth of family and friends. Here, you have to slow yourself down and remember who you were before the rush of everyday life took over.
I still ask myself why happiness felt so effortless in the Philippines. Maybe it’s because I grew up surrounded by people who knew me, loved me, and shared the same rhythm of life. Here, my friends are busy, my relatives are hundreds of miles away, and the silence can feel heavier than expected.
But loneliness is something you learn to face head-on. You fight it, you push through it, and you find color wherever you can. And in the end, I’m grateful because my family here gives my life its color. They remind me that even far from home, I can still paint my days with meaning.
The Fourth Stooge!
As an animation artist, your world naturally revolves around art. There’s always that spark, every time you see characters, designs, costumes, or anything connected to TV, film, web, or print. Back in the early days, many of my friends and colleagues in animation made it a tradition to attend the San Diego Comic Convention. It was a playground for creatives, endless things to explore, and of course, tons of freebies.
But as the event grew more popular, the crowds grew with it. What used to feel spacious and exciting slowly turned into a maze of people, where you’d have to squeeze your way through every booth and table just to catch a glimpse of what was new. Even the free stuff eventually became merchandise for sale.
Still, it was always fun to see attendees in their costumes and discover the latest trends in the art and entertainment world. But over time, I felt myself enjoying it less. The magic was still there, it just wasn’t the same.
This photo was from my last Comic-Con in San Diego. I was lucky enough to run into the Three Stooges, well, not the real guys, but close enough to make me smile. For a moment, standing there with them, I felt like I had stepped right into one of their shows… as the unofficial fourth Stooge.
The Statue I Grew Up Passing By
Every time I visit Manila, I almost always find myself wandering back into Rizal Park. Growing up, this place was part of my life, close to home, close to school, and close to so many memories. I passed by it for five straight years in college, never realizing how much of my own story was quietly tied to these grounds.
Most visitors enjoy the open spaces and the breeze, but many walk past the park’s historical gems without noticing. Behind me is one of them, La Madre Filipina.
Created in 1911 by sculptor Ramon Martinez, this statue once stood proudly on the Jones Bridge. After the war damaged the bridge, it was moved here to Rizal Park, where it stayed for decades, almost hidden in plain sight. In 2019, during the bridge’s restoration, La Madre Filipina was finally returned to its original home, now standing 20 feet high on its base.
Its journey reminds me of something simple, when something meaningful stands right in front of you, take the moment. Look closer. Appreciate it. Some stories only reveal themselves when you pause long enough to notice
When the Tide Changed My Direction
Looking out at the ocean, the memories rushed in like the tide, fast, familiar, and unexpectedly tender. Back when I first started working in the Philippines, I was just like so many other Filipinos dreaming of opportunities beyond our shores. I imagined myself in Hong Kong, Singapore, maybe the Middle East, places close enough that home still felt within reach. And just like my childhood dream of becoming an architect, life nudged me in a different direction. I found myself in the animation industry instead, building stories frame by frame.
Still, I wondered about other possibilities. What about America? I asked myself once. But the thought felt too big, too far, too unreal. The United States was literally on the other side of the world, an ocean away from everything familiar. I never pictured myself crossing that distance.
But fate has a way of quietly rearranging your plans. It doesn’t ask permission, it simply opens a door and waits for you to notice. I could never have imagined that one day I’d be standing on a foreign shore, traveling across the ocean not as a tourist but as someone brave enough to try his luck in a new land. It was a blessing, yes, but one wrapped in challenges, sacrifices, and moments of doubt.
And yet, here I am. The waves in front of me feel like the same waves that touched the Philippines, reminding me that even the farthest places are connected. My journey wasn’t the one I planned, but it became the one I needed, proof that sometimes life takes you exactly where you’re meant to be, even if the map looks nothing like the one you first imagined.
Monday, August 24, 2026
The Day I Finally Walked Into My Childhood Western
Growing up, I watched more cowboy movies than I can count, American westerns, Filipino westerns, anything with dusty streets and wooden saloons. I was always drawn to those old towns: the weathered boards, the rusty signs, the oversized stars and metalwork that looked like they’d been hammered together by legends. Never did I imagine that one day I’d actually be living in the Southwest, surrounded by the very landscapes I used to only see on TV. When I first learned Fox Animation Studios was in Arizona, I felt like destiny had tapped me on the shoulder. I wanted to breathe the same air, walk the same ground, and see the world that shaped the stories I loved.
It took me a while to finally visit this ghost town, but standing there, in front of those giant metal revolvers and the old wooden walls, I felt that familiar spark from childhood. It was funny, really, here I was, a grown man in boots and a hat, posing like a background character in a Western, yet feeling the same excitement I had as a kid glued to the screen. Arizona has a way of making the past feel close. And in that moment, it felt like the little boy in me had finally stepped into the movie.
Sunday, August 23, 2026
A New Studio, A New Story
I arrived in Arizona on August 21, 1996, stepping into a new chapter of my life to work on Anastasia, the very first feature film of Fox Animation Studios. After two days of trying to shake off the jet lag and settle into a new country, they called me in to start. I was still exhausted, still adjusting, but I showed up because this was the opportunity I had dreamed of.
On that first day, I looked calm and relaxed at my desk, but inside I was nervous. I hadn’t touched a pencil in three months, and suddenly I was handed a musical sequence: Anastasia singing and dancing, with Pooka bouncing along beside her. It was a beautiful scene, but it was also a test. My hands felt rusty, my mind was racing, and I could feel the weight of starting over in a new studio, a new culture, a new level of expectation.
Even with five years of experience and 55 Hanna‑Barbera titles behind me, I knew I had to adjust quickly. Fox had a different rhythm, a different creative energy, and I had to push myself to rise to it. I had to prove not just to them, but to myself that I belonged there.
But once I started drawing, something familiar returned. The nervousness didn’t disappear, but the joy of animation pushed through it. That moment, captured in the photo, shows me smiling and focused but it doesn’t show the courage it took to sit at that desk, pick up that pencil, and begin again.
Monday, November 3, 2025
Echoes of Valor Beneath My Feet
Tuesday, October 7, 2025
The Pump That Took Me Home
Seeing this deep well hand pump stirred a flood of memories. We had one just outside our house in Manila, and it was part of my daily rhythm, showering before and after school to escape the heat and humidity. The water wasn’t filtered or particularly fresh, but it was free, and that mattered. It saved us money and carried a kind of simplicity that felt grounding. Even here in Arizona, certain things, like this old pump, can unexpectedly transport you back home. It’s a quiet reminder that pieces of the Philippines live on in the most ordinary places.
Tuesday, September 23, 2025
🎥 When Opportunity Knocks, Answer with Courage
I was once asked to create promotional videos of our CEO. I had never done anything like it professionally, but I had a hobby, a passion for filming and editing. So I said yes. Not because I was ready, but because I was willing to learn.
That one moment of courage turned into a new skill, and eventually, a regular part of my work. I didn’t just take on a task, I grew into it.
Sometimes, the most meaningful growth comes from the things we never planned for. Don’t be afraid to face challenges. They often carry the seeds of your next breakthrough.
📸 This was my setup during one of those early shoots. A reminder that every expert was once a beginner who chose to try.
Saturday, September 20, 2025
Hopias Over Jackpots
Still, I shake my head at how expensive it is just to stay the night, room rates, resort fees, parking charges, taxes, it all adds up fast. I’d rather spend that money on something that brings me closer to home. That’s why every visit includes a stop at the Filipino grocery store. Phoenix doesn’t have one yet (though one is finally opening early next year), so we stock up on the things I miss most: hopia, rice cakes, and other treats that carry the taste of memory. Before heading back, we always sit down at the Filipino restaurant tucked inside the store. It’s more than a meal, it’s a way to soothe the ache of homesickness, to feel connected to the Philippines even while standing in the Nevada desert.
Wednesday, September 17, 2025
Home, Earned and Embraced
Standing on a hill with the American flag in the background, a quiet moment that speaks volumes about the life I’ve built. When I first arrived from the Philippines, everything felt unfamiliar, but I met each challenge with humility and an open heart. I learned to navigate this new world by respecting its culture, following its laws, and staying true to my values. Over time, Arizona became more than a place to live, it became a place to grow, to connect, and to belong. Now, with the city behind me and the flag above me, I feel the weight of my journey and the peace that comes from knowing: this is home.
Two Shores, One Journey
As I stand at the marina in San Diego, watching the boats sway gently in the water, I find myself reflecting on the journey of my life, from my childhood in the Philippines to the present here in Phoenix, Arizona. Back in Manila Bay, the marina was a place of peace, where I could walk freely, feel the sea breeze, and embrace the simplicity of life without a worry in the world. Today, life in Phoenix is so different, surrounded by desert landscapes, endless heat, and the fast pace of modern living. Yet, in moments like this by the water, I am reminded of my roots and the contrast between where I came from and where I am now. Both places, though worlds apart, hold pieces of who I am, one shaped my beginnings, and the other continues to shape my journey.
Tuesday, September 16, 2025
From Sacrifice to Serenity
Back then, the dream of a better life felt uncertain, fragile even, but we held onto it. The long flights, the homesickness, the moments of doubt, all were stepping stones to the life we were building. Every challenge faced in those early years made moments like this one possible: sitting peacefully in a place I never could have imagined as a young man in Manila, the sound of water trickling behind me, and the breeze brushing across my face.
I look out at the view, not just of the golf course and fountain, but of the years lived, the sacrifices made, and the blessings earned. What started as a leap of faith has become a story of resilience and quiet triumph. And in this simple moment of rest, I feel a deep gratitude for the journey that brought me here.
Sunday, September 14, 2025
A Taste of Home, Thousands of Miles Away
When you arrive in a new country, everything feels unfamiliar, the streets, the language, even the air. But food? Food is memory. It’s comfort. It’s the taste of home when everything else feels far away.
Thursday, September 11, 2025
Hope
I’ve lived through many seasons, some filled with joy, others with sacrifice. I’ve left one home to build another. I’ve watched my children grow in a country that gave us opportunity, even as I carried the ache of what I left behind.
And through it all, I’ve learned this: The belief in a better tomorrow is what separates hope from despair.
Hope isn’t just a feeling. It’s a decision we make when the world feels heavy. It’s what kept me going when I didn’t know how to navigate American systems, when homesickness crept in, when I wondered if I’d ever feel truly at home again. It’s what I pass on to my children, not just the dream, but the discipline to keep believing.
Despair whispers that nothing will change. Hope answers, “Not yet, but it will.”
So I choose hope. For my family. For my community. For anyone who’s ever felt caught between two worlds, wondering if they belong. Because tomorrow can be better, but only if we believe it’s worth building.
Friday, September 5, 2025
The Day My AC Broke (and My Wallet Did Too)
When Giants Become History
Sunday, August 31, 2025
Prescott, Arizona
Saturday, August 30, 2025
Lonely Car
Hanna-Barbera Days
Captured in the early '90s during my time at Fil-Cartoons. Back then, it felt like an extension of college life. Your co-workers were like classmates, people you laughed with, teased, shared stories with, and grew close to. We’d gather in the cafeteria for lunch, split meals, and head out together on paydays to celebrate. I truly miss those days.
Now, we mostly connect through likes and comments on social media. Quiet, but still meaningful.
And one of the more sobering “adult” moments? Seeing those tax deductions on your paycheck and trusting the government to put them to good use, especially on infrastructure and flood control projects.
To all who work, create, and contribute. Here's to the friendships we build along the way. Happy Labor Day!
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